ULGH. Oh well. That's okay, my DAYS are good. =D Valentine's Day seeds, anyone?? DESPAIR candy hearts?

Except when I get confused in class. That would be today in LINALG and CALC. Like, what in the world happened in those classes? I may have to start this review-VERY-regularly business! As in, I have a CHEM midterm tomorrow, and I'm blogging now. Isn't it great? Oh welps, chem is easy, at least for now it is.

On another note, I've realised some weird stuff about me lately:
I am actually, kinda REALLY anal about stuff - like how, when I'm watching TV, the volume HAS to be on multiples of 5 (that's the reason why, sometimes, I can't ever get the right/comfortable volume, so I just move myself closer, or further).
I'm afraid of streets - cars scare me, and I'm always running across the street, or walking briskly, at least.
I've got a REALLY good life - I'm never uber stressed, I've a good family, and I LIKE my life, and it's worth keeping.
(branching off from that last one,) I'm kinda weirded out by how UNLIKING of my life I used to be - I don't like how I used to be so negative, and I'm always scared I'll get back to that; so I tend to avoid situations that could potential put me in that place again.
I have issues with friendship - I never know when someone is actually my friend, and I'm afraid to call them one in case I'm not a friend to them (like, we're just acquaintances); it makes me feel absurdly happy when people refer to me as a friend for the first time.
I really need attention - like, really; this may be reaching out from the previous thing: I need to know people know I exist. Sometimes I act the way I do so people will look at me.
I feel like sometimes, I just need to fit in.
I like being alone - sometimes, I wonder why I didn't just get a simgle room, then I could be in there, and no one would know I was in there, and they wouldn't bother me.
I like groups of three most. Two people is just too little, and it makes me feel awkward, and any bigger makes things all BLARGH and too busy and LOUD.
I have THE biggest issues maintaining, or even making, eye contact - if anyone ever noticed, I hardly look into anyone's eyes for too long a period (like, longer than 10 seconds). It is especially bad with the opposite sex; I feel like I'm being judged. This may be the reason for my dislike / uncomfortable-ness with one-on-one situations. This realization really hit me, when I was sitting with a friend at lunch, and I would rather play with my utensils than look up when I/he was talking. With others, I'd rather look anywhere BUT their eyes.
I am a really, REALLY big pushover, and only just recently, I realized how much it bothered me that everyone always asked me to do stuff. Or how some people just assume I'm okay with everything they do, or say. I'm so much a pushover that I don't even have the guts to tell people off when I'm feeling very uncomfortable, and would rather just laugh it off and pretend I was perfectly fine with it. And when the odd time comes around that I DO say something, I immediately regret it.

Okay, so that's the rant of the day. 3 more sleeps until I come home! (but aw shucks, it means being away *tear )